01-28-22

While at CCCF, I’ve made a friend here and we realized we have a lot in common. We both grew up with controlling mothers which we suspect might have had a hand in how we both ended up in relationships with narcissists. I think they call this inter-generational trauma. if you haven’t heard the term narcissist, it’s a person with a personality flaw that usually preys on empaths (people who are very sensitive to other people’s needs).

Narcissist behavior consists of three different stages: love bombing (narcissist tries to win over the empath), abuse (devaluation, can consist of emotional, physical, or both. Includes gaslighting – blaming the empath for everything), and the smear campaign. When the empath tries to leave the narcissist, he then proceeds to turn everyone against the empath whom he most likely has isolated from friends and family during the abuse phase. He seals the deal with lies and slander causing the empath’s friends and family to side with the narcissist.

In my friend’s case, she ended up here in prison because of crimes her boyfriend (narcissist) committed. she was given 7 years and they added another year on. During the course of her incarceration, her daughter committed suicide and later the narcissist as well. She now has a lawsuit with the DHS and we hope the ACLU will get involved.

In my case, the narcissist turned my mother against me. We are currently in the process of repairing our relationship but he also spoke to the DA. I’m not sure, but I suspect this whole situation might be part of a smear campaign from the narcissist. I spoke to him shortly after I was arrested and he told me he spoke to the DA but didn’t tell him anything. I don’t know if I believe that. When I started talking to my lawyers, I could tell they had spoken to the narcissist as well, as everything they asked me about was skewed to his side of the story of our arguments when we were together. I say arguments but they were more like abuse sessions. Being able to talk to my friend and knowing I’m not alone in this world is probably one of my biggest blessings I’ve received and I truly feel love for her. She is also one of the kindest people I know but also the strongest.

01-23-22

We saw on the news this morning (Fox 12) that the Washington County Police Force is under investigation for use of force. One of the girls that was in Washington County Jail with me was also saying they had a recent death because of excessive force and another said they put her in an illegal choke hold and cut her head.

There was also a sexual assault that happened while I was there but the young lady said she was not ready yet to come forward with her name. I myself had gone over two months there without eating due to the excessive harassment and threats from the deputies. After two months it got to where I couldn’t even keep water down so I had asked for 911 over the intercom but nobody came to check on me. I feel very fortunate to have survived.

I was placed in isolation for three months without being given a reason. While in isolation, I saw a girl in handcuffs thrown to the ground. She landed on her head and started crying. I saw her taken out on a stretcher and I never saw her again. We saw them bring in new girls and head them scream in pain before they were put into cells. I was told by one girl she was tased for no reason. She showed me the welts on her skin.

While in general population at Washington County Jail, we were told not to look out or windows when an emergency was going on. This makes me think they know what they’re doing is wrong and it’s their attempt to hide it.

I was placed in an escort hold and forcefully pushed into my cell by a deputy that told me not to walk on the carpet. Does all of this seem excessive to you? To me it sounds like abuse of power.

01-22-22

I got moved to J unit yesterday and it’s so much nicer than G unit. This is actually an incentive unit but because of covid, they are moving people here directly from intake. I’d like to think this is a response to the kite I sent in as several people had recommended me here because of my personality and the fact that I have a life sentence. The puppies are here, so it’s been really cool to meet them!One offered me both hands to shake, so I assume he was really pleased to meet me.

They say people with longer sentences are less concerned with who’s sitting at what table which is really refreshing, and I was happy to hear my new room-mate is also appealing because I’m so unfamiliar with the appeals process. I also really though I was going to win my trial but here I sit in Coffee Creek Corrections Facility. I still don’t understand how they charged me with a life sentence with no hard evidence, no motive, no witnesses, and I wasn’t even found in the area of the crime. I also had an alibi: there was a security camera at the doorway of my friend’s condo complex but they only kept footage for two weeks and since it was in Seattle and my lawyers were in Oregon, that might have been why they refused to get the footage.

Having been through the whole process, I’m really surprised at the number of ladies I’ve talked to that are in similar situations. Some of them even have no criminal backgrounds before this like me. That’s why I’ve decided to do something about it and this blog is dedicated to the progress.

To Whom It May Concern: January 2022

I am an “Adult in Custody” (AIC) in the State of Oregon and wish to call your attention to the need for reforms to the Justice System, particularly to the long sentences being given to women convicted at trial for crimes committed under questionable circumstances or by circumstantial evidence by judges and juries in the State.

By way of example, I will describe the experiences of three ladies at the Coffee Creek Correctional Facility in Wilsonville, Oregon, who have gone through the Justice System and received the maximum sentences required by Statute based on the charges, in cases involving self-defense, circumstantial evidence, or simply suspicion of guilt based on factors other than the crime itself.

The first woman is a Vietnam War veteran, and therefore can be considered “elderly” as well. Oregon has laws protecting the elderly, but apparently they do not apply to this case. She was severely beaten during the incident that led to her conviction, so badly in fact that she feared for her life and later developed PTSD. Her PTSD has gone untreated and no psychologist was called to testify to this medical diagnosis during trial or subsequently. She has now been incarcerated for seven years and has not received any help in appealing her conviction. It is appalling that no one has assisted this Vietnam War veteran to appeal her conviction or sentence.

The second woman spent two years in the Washington County Jail with severe medical problems, with no medical treatment, while awaiting trial. She was in extreme pain during this pre-trial period and exhausted her limited funds seeking proper representation. Her case involved an abusive husband and the DA made fun of her during trial. She was slandered with unsubstantiated hearsay evidence at trial. Her abuse was discounted even though there was evidence that her husband, after divorce, continued to stalk and harass her.

The third woman, also convicted on the basis of circumstantial evidence, asserts that she was not even at the scene of the crime and had no motive to commit it. At trial the DA impugned her character generally to the jury during trial and the jury spent just a few hours before returning a guilty verdict on a Friday leading into a holiday weekend. At trial the officer who made the arrest admitted that he thought she was someone else and that he searched and confiscated her vehicle without a warrant. She was held in jail without bail for almost two years before trial. There were other potential suspects in the case who were not investigated by the prosecution. She was providing support for her elderly parents who are not in good health, but this was not considered at trial.

When looking at these and other cases, one might conclude that the Justice System in Washington County and elsewhere in Oregon is gender-biased. A broader investigation is needed to review this issue. There are no doubt many other cases of wrongful conviction that need to be reconsidered and sentences either commuted or reversed, or clemency granted.

Turning now to the problems of how the elderly are being treated in the Oregon Justice System. By example, I will discuss two specific cases: Crysta McNair and Susan Monica. Crysta was charged with a financial crime; her victim was an elderly man. The State prosecuted Crysta even though her victim chose not to press charges. Susan Monica is elderly, but she was prosecuted even though she was the victim of violence, had been beaten badly (with over $9000 in medical bills) and claimed self-defense. These two cases suggest that the Justice System goes to greater lengths to protect men than they do to protect women.

Another issue is that of the difficulty of getting proper defense representation. Private attorneys are prohibitively expensive, and State-appointed defense attorneys pressure defendants to take plea deals rather than go to trial. While awaiting trial, sometimes for well over a year, defendants are kept in County jails, often in isolation with limited, if any, access to intellectual stimuli (like books, magazines, etc.). They are not treated as being innocent until proven guilty as the U. S. Constitution “guarantees” or in accordance with the Geneva Convention that considers many of the tactics used on these pre-trial defendants as a form of mental torture. This often leads to severe pre-trial depression and affects the ability of defendants to prepare for trial. In the case of the third woman above, she stopped eating for three months but her court-appointed Counsel did nothing to help, and even suggest a “mental evaluation” even though she had no indications of mental problems.

According to the U. S. Constitution, people are supposed to be innocent until proven guilty, but from these and other accounts it seems more often they are considered guilty until proven innocent, and doomed from the start. Many incarcerated women feel that they have been victimized by the legal system. Some say they tried to raise objections with their court-appointed lawyers and were either ignored altogether or told to be quiet. They are told by their lawyers to sit quiet at trial while the prosecution slanders them. Shouldn’t it be a conflict of interest if the State is both trying a case against a person and assigning their defense counsel?

Following the Boston Tea Party, our Nation was founded on the principle that “taxation without representation is tyranny”. Currently, many incarcerated women in Oregon feel what they have received is misrepresentation, not representation. They also note that the prison system is even inflicting a form of “slave labor” to keep itself running. Adults in Custody (AICs) are working at various jobs for far less than minimum wage, which will result in no or minimum Social Security benefits when or if they are released from custody. Even while in custody, Susan does not receive her Veteran’s benefits. When some women are finally, if ever, released, at an elderly age, it is likely they will have to live at or below below the poverty level, with no hope of a secure future. Women with shorter sentences will still have their futures impaired, since their criminal record will affect their ability to get jobs. Citizens have to earn a minimum of $1500 per quarter to earn a single Social Security credit. An AIC can earn a maximum of $82 per month according to the inmate manual. There is no possibility for contributing to a retirement or IRA plan.

The State of Oregon needs to keep in mind that one of the main purposes of incarceration is rehabilitation. Upon release, an AIC is expected to become an upright and responsible citizen, but it is more likely that, upon release an AIC’s financial situation will lead to such poverty as to make that a new punishment all of its own. That sounds like the opposite of rehabilitation.

Sincerely yours,

An Adult in Custody at Coffee Creek Correctional Facility